imalex

ok and..

2009-12-21T09:38:04Z

ok so i feel like life is shit.
yeah im sure everyones like "well duh yeah" and thats exactly how ive felt...
its like no matter what path you take its going to be long and kind of shitty anyways....

unless by chance we get a huge some of motha fuckin money randomly......or have some secretly huge name in politics....

but seriously? this is our life kind of in a way no matter how wed like to see it-we still kind of WANT to see it this way (in some sick sense)
get married to some one you kind of know but you dont want to have any boundaries but realize that everyone is too similar actually and can make any situation into a actual good one or that you were really a lucky person to find another who is actually worth standing? or that nothing matters and no matter what your fucked for life because you dont want to be alone and have sex? but hopefully its really all for a particular reason that will all tie in together later?
or
have stupid fucking kids which dont sound appealing AT ALL (but for some reason we fucking feel the need to breed ourselves because in some selfish way we think that our asshole children will fill the needs to annoy another generation of people and effect them in some way or another)
or
have some lame ass job that will "hopefuly" through school get you to the job you supposedly "love"and want to endure in and live life through to make a difference to the world in some way? i really hope so....

im just wrestless and want everything really.....to be everywhere and to make so many possibilities and craziness happen....

i just think in enough time it will really happen
and for the time being nothing matters and these thoughts will again just float away until i really have to deal with them.

im kind of tired and done with school but looking forward to stupid shit.
ive been drinking wine and getting off work at midnight is obnoxious.
but im still loving life.
fuck ugh

?

2009-10-16T20:34:23Z

so never thought id ever hate a band or type of music until now..
i really dont but when you hear it way too often and only the same bands for maybe 2 years straight?

yeah i fucking hate the aggrolites. and a lot of other ska/reggae bands...

no i dont hate the people who love this....
but seriously.
i. am. so.

tired. of this band and genre.
i have probably heard about 3 cds all the way through at LEAST............40x myself...
not including all the times one of the songs just appear..

i lied.

2009-02-24T06:53:07Z

i lied....
i lied to a lot of people..

david has NOT read all the Watchmen books like ive told everyone when he was sick..

i rest my case.

more school

2008-10-14T05:34:41Z

I really suck at essays.

It would be really nice if I could write an essay about me trying to make a point/argument about anything I wanted......like....if life were a pickle how juicy i would it be!

i cant wait to graduate.

and i cant wait to turn into banana bread!!!!! sweet.

yep im posting again

2008-09-19T08:32:57Z

Just found out my dad asked my mom to divorce him through an email about an hour ago......

Nono-don't be weird because its through an email (trust me you don't know my mom its the only way he can communicate with her now...)

But I didn't pick up my phone bc it wasn't on me and I feel pretty terrible....

Not a huge deal really I'll see her tomorrow (we had plans to shop...)

But sometimes it just gets too sad...... too sad to watch their relationship

my cat is killing my chair...

2008-09-10T07:50:12Z

so....
another fucking day in the house.

yeah-it is all business when it comes to friends + money...
thats my opinion and i sticking to it. :]

And to blatantly back up my reason: a "friend" does this? exactly. and becomes a friend no more.

Some people idolize there family members. I do
But when you don't understand the reasoning why you idolize them and why they are correct?
You just become an asshole with no logic

As I said before, what has happened to me in my life I am certainly grateful for...
Because I would not know what I have learned now

I'm really glad I kept my cool.... something I would not have done before..
Everything is still into play... there is a reason why people get screwed over

& I am completely done.

fast

2008-08-05T03:14:53Z

i really dont like being so far away from my family for so long...

:[

filmisms

2008-04-03T01:31:46Z

filmisms.

theres so many ideas ive been coming up with lately
and i just want to explode

i want to do so many things but i already have so many deadlines

i finally figured ill finish school
slowly.

&& my kitties have so much personality now i love it

i cant wait to go to vegas
but morely i really cant wait till i move in with lacey and david

we will be so creative and have so many adventures

i want to have more day just so i can see everyone more...

imalex @ 2007-09-27T23:58:00

2007-09-28T06:58:17Z

I LOVE ANAL.

david meow

2007-09-25T08:35:36Z

so.

i never thought it would feel this good to be with someone
it actually scares me

i am actually in love.
its wierd to think about

and even though i knew this a lil while ago--i love him.
it just kinda went into that strong love you know youll never get over
i love it
but again-its scary and new
came totally out of left field...

i hate sleeping alone. and its ridiculous how bad i cant sleep alone

im so happy its amazing
i dont want it to ever end.
and now i finally know what people mean.

im new?

2007-03-07T18:30:06Z

i believe i am so new to this stuff i dont know what im in...
&&&
i already know kinda whats going to happen
but im letting it slide anyways & roll out
i keep telling myself not to worry & just have fun with it

just dont get too serious.
btw my parents really are sometimes life ruiners.
but im still positive

maybe im gonna blow up soon but thats alright..

whiiizzz

2007-02-10T01:22:43Z

woo-hoo for being here

&&&&&
im over it.

btw--this whole...horny thing?
yeah its fun & dumb all in one.

yeah. i just rhymed.

car

2007-01-24T01:10:53Z

so my car was stolen and now its beat to shit in the middle of phoenix....

sadsadsad...

hahahhahaha but i cant stop laughing

def. dark & twisty

2007-01-03T05:54:49Z

i have an ugly truth.

oy.

lets wash it all off now.

him

2006-12-25T08:37:30Z

so ive been thinking
i love life/really not sure whats going to happen

and im kinda hopin something comes my way w/ _______ :] *crossies*
no im not going to say im dumb.

& also--i miss steve.
im glad i could hear him.
im not sad--but i wish my best friend was back.

& this semester im not doing anymore. *blank statement*

merry christmas i love u all:
lacey andrea ali erin guggis elorie jill devin jon ben keli katie^3 kylie kayleigh spencer paulina nathan ryan tanner ari sarah^2
& the fam.

ah

2006-11-24T10:28:30Z

i miss it.

High Fidelity

2006-11-20T10:37:50Z

im gonna be really caucious here...

glad all of the old friends are understanding more + knowing the feeling

im scared for this weekend...but im going to just let whatever happen and not think about it until i have to

Trying new things: happy that i didnt wait any longer, and happy that i didnt try any sooner.
Thank you Lacey for your trust & care
Thank you Ali for your support & understanding

hehe

2006-07-31T08:54:22Z

Once you are tagged you MUST write an entry about 6 weird habits/things you do/odd information, as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next six people to be tagged and list their names.

1. i like to wear guys boxerbriefs-their super way comfy

2. cologne + natural smell turns me on. A LOT. (<3 feremones!)

3. when i "stare off" sometimes i think of random ways im going to die/someones going to die and i have to save myself/them-they seem to last about 10mins-when its only a few seconds

4. i naturally memorize information that doesn't matter in the "real world"

5. when im putting on heel sandles i cant have people look at my feet (their one of my top self concious features)

6. i "pre-think" conversations im going/want to have and make the facial expressions with what i say

andrea, ali (did it), lacey (did it), erin, amanda, & someone who wants to do this

so...

2006-06-03T22:50:31Z

wtf
i cant stop thinking exactly that

Ali thnx <3 n i cant wait to take
Ali Makeup 101

awsome!

the month of ghey.

2006-02-02T05:27:21Z

this month hasnt seemed to bring the best times...
im really mad a my parents.
lonely?
no not from friends...:/
feel wanted? yes please.
lacey understands.
ghey.

scandalous.

2006-01-02T01:12:28Z

The beginning of the night:
crazy good bread dip, meeting kylies parents, close friends, music, madonna's pink liatard, singing We Could Be Lovers, hook-ups to speakers, food.

Before the ball dropped:
steve's bartending skills, guggis's drinking skills, scandalous undies in hottub, playing hide and seek in robes, playing hide and seek without robes, scaring kylie, grilled hot dogs and hamburgers, dancing up on Kourtney's grill, crazy strobe lights, Guggis drinking, no one in cloths, whip cream war, kayleighs creepy dip, taking advantage of Andrea, sexually harrassing Andrea, booty, Spensers tux, sean on everyone, everyone on sean, firepit dead, Devin's 'skit-skit' no more, random 2 girls in cloths, more than you will ever know, guggis drinking

The ball drops:
freakin new years kissers die.

After the ball drops:
hottubing, hottubing naked, hottubing naked with amanda, amanda naked, amanda naked on erin, guggis drinking, devins pelvic thrust, justin dying, sean date raped, cloths?, guggis dead, erin <3 guggis's neck, big hicky, erin <3 josh's face, steve bartending skills at max, andreas virginity gone, guggis in shower for 3 hours«-rhymes, matts cane/sword, little jordan and big jordan, yes sir, guggis puke, andreas mad cleaning skills, passed out justin, devins sexy shades, naked people, marines mam', eric crazy eyes, guggis holding steves hand, making out, passed out, amanda naked in hottub still, teen spirit, italian sausages at 4am, sleep?

Thank you all for coming to the new years party. Thank steve for making it amazing ;] and thank my parents for never being home.

hope you all had fun. and pics will be up soon-or never. ;]
love all-alex

wow lj :]

2005-12-25T22:56:45Z

merry christmas my few livejournal junkies...
ill post some pics soon for the new year-
hopefully of all the pics everyone wants (karaoke, movies, everything etc.)
love you all very much-you have no idea how much u guys mean to me sometimes-you guys really are my family.
-alex

mmm-hmm

2005-11-15T01:13:52Z

so ive had my cheek numb for about an hour and half...
and im just now starting my essay for english.
poo.

crap about me :]

2005-10-27T07:21:41Z

i havent used lj in so long i forgot the thing so all my text goes to a link..:/ and it is 12am so yeah. :]

10 years ago:
1) playing fetch with a pencil
2) at a private catholic school in utah....
3) being a yoshi and fighting the ninjas
4) putting my blanket in the freezer so it smelled like waffles-and was cold :]
5) getting read to leave my homeland and meet all u fine people

5 years ago:
1) not remembering much but thinking jr high was awsome
2) my dad was still living at home but leaving within the year/next
3) opening the curtins when girls dressed out for swimming
4) collecting weebles or whatever the hell they were
5) watching my bros and their friends get so drunk so many times

1 year ago:
1) real life hit me

2) the drama finally stopped...

3) 11th grade was the worst year thanks to school and family

4) i knew id always be w my best friend forever

5) twas shitty

yesterday:
1) my back hurt really bad...and u all know why ^-^
2) realized theres too much going on...but its all fun so its ok
3) i hate deadicating time to work
4) got a C on my govt test
5) went to the hotdog place 2nd time in a row :]

5 snacks i like:
1) not pizza
2) dove chocolate
3) pumpkin pie
4) puffy cheethos
5) anything thats avalible

5 Songs I Know all the Words to:
1) my humps o__o
2) last christmas - george michael
3) when i was 17 - frank sinatra
4) i love u, always forever - donna lewis
5) mad world - donni darko

if i had a million dollars:
1) a million dollars isnt a whole lot in this society now...
2) id buy thigns that my friends n family need
3) top of the line camera, computer, vdeo-cam, and all the video-edting programs :]

5 Things I Would Never Wear:
1) those net shirts...things...
2) im gonna be a rebel no matter what- i do what i want.
3) Ugg-ly boots
4) oversized cloths n actually think i look good
5) toe nails

Favorite TV Shows:
1) i love the...etc

5 Bad Habits:
1) doing too much
2) not making time for my family
3) whinning
4) not paying attention to my kitty
5) taking pictures at bad moments even tho they seem great

5 biggest joys:
1) good music
2) dancing
3) surprises!!! i love them :]
4) memories
5) friends.

Now I'm tagging five of you:

1) youve
2) all
3) done
4) it
5) already

meh..

2005-07-07T21:29:40Z

i have to stop living in the future...
i dont get it...im fine but i feel sad..
i want a hug